15 months of recovering from an abusive man and relationship is just the minute tip of the virtual iceberg. I don’t know where to begin, I still jump at weird noises Still look out of my window and shoulder to make sure no one is watching my house . Stalking , invading .
I feel it will be a very long process to getting back to normalcy since it took years if abuse to knock me and my children down. It’s not as easy as now he’s gone move on… Doesn’t work like that it is so much more difficult to quiet my brain of fears and static of always being on guard and not being able to enjoy the skin I am in. To help my kids heal to live life and smile and laugh .
I don’t trust anymore, so how does one go about regaining the faith in people after all of the hurtful damaging words and actions they have carried out? To then invest in myself and even get to a point to trust another man?
I cringe at the thought and feel it will be a very long time to get to a place where I can trust another with all that I have to offer… My children have learned a sad but valuable lesson and with patience love and support and faith I hope that they too will not be scarred from this..
It is the hardest at night when all is quiet and the noise begins… Getting back to Normalcy.
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