I Am Here

No Matter what , I am here... I will be here as long as I am alive and breathing, You are special to me and all that it entails. I have many fond memories of us hanging out ,Playing, talks, laughing and crying Family Trips and Vacations.

I know that you are going through something larger than life, that you don't have answers to and hopefully you find answers. Hopefully you find Peace and Happiness in your life and you make some sense of all of this.  You deserve that, You helped people of all walks of life, saving them from themselves. Breathing life into those who couldn't breath for themselves, Delivered babies, you have worked so hard. And I am so proud, you became a Dr. and have continued for all of these years to help others selflessly  it is an honor to be your sister I Love You and,... I Am Here.

Depression

Unless you're directly dealing with depression or with a loved one in depression? You can not possibly understand how difficult it is. And by that I mean to watch someone suffer and not be able to do anything to change their situation. Unless they opt to do something about it themselves? There is nothing we can do and THAT is the helpless feeling that follows. I,/We hurt and speaking from personal experience I feel so frustrated and sad that I can not help my loved one.

What to do? The only thing that I can do? Is let them know that I Love them, and I miss them  and that I am here for them ready to listen, to talk. If I don't do what I feel , and I Ignore that urge to say what I need to? I Might never be able to tomorrow is never promised. So No regrets I don't want to live with regrets ever... I am good so far, hopefully that doesn't change.

Hoping for a happier tomorrow for my family ...

All I can Do Is Listen

Losing a Parent is devastating, My significant other has lost his father. All I can do is cry out of deep sadness in compassion for him and the pain he must be feeling. I can only listen so he can try to begin to process this gut wrenching hurt. I can hold him and wipe away tears, and wipe the snot from his nose and rock him and listen but he has a long difficult road to acceptance. And after significant time can he then begin to heal and move on. Right now? It seems in obtainable, to raw and so sad .

I never got to meet him our kids never got to meet him, that hurts because even with his short comings, he seemed to be an incredible exemplary specimen of a Father. He was in the military, and a math genius..

The kids and I would have loved him I am sure of it.. Rest easy now your family misses you.

All I can do is Listen :(