Spiritual Moment

Everyone at some point has had and will have someone close to them that they love that they will lose. It is inevitable it is life, No one likes loss it hurts.. It sucks . I am going through that right now and I had the coolest thing happen to me yesterday that I must share  with you.

I had an appointment, I did what I needed to do and then walked out of the building and sat on a bench and enjoyed the beautiful weather . As I am sitting on the bench, a Grasshopper flies in front of my face and lands to my right and I am watching it look at me and as I am watching this creature it starts to bob back and forth. It sits there for a good couple of minutes and then flew right next to me on my left and sat there for as long as I was there  which was ten minutes. Right next to my foot, just hanging out with me
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Now I don't know if any of you have knowledge of the meaning of Grasshoppers and that they have many meanings to different cultures. They are said to be Lucky, to be a Totem" if you will and hold prosperity. I believe in  the spiritual world and all of what it has to offer. This Grasshopper meant something But I did not understand it until after I was home and spoke to my mother.

But I felt a sense of calm, I didn't question it I just felt good. I traveled home and was home not a half an hour before my mother calls me to tell me that my Aunts health is deteriorating rapidly and it is then that I realized that was it!
It could have been her leaving her body and she was paying me a visit before she moved on. She is only here right now as a shell, no communication no awareness comatose if you will to me this had great meaning.
Sometimes you don't have to have a reason to believe. You just do.. You feel it and you can't explain it,  it  just IS.

There is a reason for everything  this was my profound spiritual moment :)

Just Want You to Know

As I sat in your room with you watching you put on your makeup, It brought me back to when I was a child and reminded me of how time is precious. How I appreciated that time and enjoyed watching you put your makeup on.

It's a reminder that it's the small things in life that can be monumental and we shouldn't take these moments though fleeting for granted.

I sat on your bed watching you , and my eyes started to well up with tears... They welled up with tears because I appreciate you, I Love You and I couldn't bare to be without you. The mere thought of one day you not being here for me to just call and say hi and hear your voice was devastating to me..
Horribly scary, As I see you struggling with your own fears, and pains I really can not bare the thought of losing you. So I just want you to know that I Love You, I appreciate you and all of our time together...

If I Could

If I could? I would, I would erase all of the pain , hurt, and sorrow in your heart.. I want you to know that when you hurt? I hurt, I might not show it like I should . Or enough but I see your struggle, I see the look in your eyes , and I feel your pain. I just want you to know that I Love you, and that I am hear for you .. As always , an ear to listen to you a shoulder to cry on a pair of arms to hug you.

Not even to speak if necessary, I am here, I will always be here for you as you have been for me I Love you , if I could? I would....